Dreams to paper

i don't know when the last time it was that i wrote anything on this page...sorry things have not been an easy road to travel. i have had the privileged to read a great story from start to finish and the scariest thing was that it was so close to my real life today it made me stop and think what had i really accomplished in my short life. but the last time i think i updated this i might have mentioned doing nawrimo failed only by a short 2000 words just couldn't force the last amount out just too tired and what not. after which i am still writing that story but finding it so much easier to write now that i've stopped typing and reverted to paper and to any tree happy person out there its recycled. sorry i have listened to so many people who think they are hippies and tree hugers about the use of paper the last week that i almost never wanna see another again.....i find it funny they have no problem with me using canvas to paint paper to draw on but the second i started writing on it i was verbally mauled by them.....the saddest part was they started to argue about it to the point that slipping under the table and crawling away didn't even get noticed...... everyone else stared at me but i watched them argue for about 20 minutes before leaving the food court. rather funny then disturbing. none the less i am writing and maybe soon a chapter or two will be up i am really enjoying this story. especially with the new curve that life has tossed into my lap. it has let me get out the most in dire feelings that most people might ignore or pass of as just down right "uncivilized" as a not so good friend put it. but isn't that the fun of writing you can take it anywhere your mind can take you. be it twisted romantic simplistic or darker than the deepest hole ocean night sky could ever be. truth be told its what drives me to write because i can put my dreams to paper. i can tell a story that may mean something to someone one day. but i will leave you at that....some what of a much needed rant but none the less made me feel better. i hope that i can get a chapter up soon for all the readers that read my stories if you are out there....