Dreams to paper

i don't know when the last time it was that i wrote anything on this page...sorry things have not been an easy road to travel. i have had the privileged to read a great story from start to finish and the scariest thing was that it was so close to my real life today it made me stop and think what had i really accomplished in my short life. but the last time i think i updated this i might have mentioned doing nawrimo failed only by a short 2000 words just couldn't force the last amount out just too tired and what not. after which i am still writing that story but finding it so much easier to write now that i've stopped typing and reverted to paper and to any tree happy person out there its recycled. sorry i have listened to so many people who think they are hippies and tree hugers about the use of paper the last week that i almost never wanna see another again.....i find it funny they have no problem with me using canvas to paint paper to draw on but the second i started writing on it i was verbally mauled by them.....the saddest part was they started to argue about it to the point that slipping under the table and crawling away didn't even get noticed...... everyone else stared at me but i watched them argue for about 20 minutes before leaving the food court. rather funny then disturbing. none the less i am writing and maybe soon a chapter or two will be up i am really enjoying this story. especially with the new curve that life has tossed into my lap. it has let me get out the most in dire feelings that most people might ignore or pass of as just down right "uncivilized" as a not so good friend put it. but isn't that the fun of writing you can take it anywhere your mind can take you. be it twisted romantic simplistic or darker than the deepest hole ocean night sky could ever be. truth be told its what drives me to write because i can put my dreams to paper. i can tell a story that may mean something to someone one day. but i will leave you at that....some what of a much needed rant but none the less made me feel better. i hope that i can get a chapter up soon for all the readers that read my stories if you are out there....

I GOT IT!

This month has started out great new job new ideas spilling from my mind. i found my idea started it and stupid me forgot to save and lost it all...i cried mentally cried but i guess it was for the best because I'm writing a story i find much more comfortable and I'm pushing myself to get out 50,000 words before the end of the month. and it's not all that hard so far. i can't seem to stop writing now that i've gone back to paper can't lose it like on the computer. but I'm happy really happy. the black clouds are gone. it's been great reading all the new story's coming out and especially one of my fav writers FireFlame123 sry if i spelled it wrong. I'm really tired long day at work but I'm determined to finish this chapter tonight or at least get to the last scene anyway. I'm so glad that things are getting better. well slip you all a update later.

Exicted but in pain

I so excited that life has given me light and i can write again. I'm gonna try and to National Writers month this year just a trail run not actually entering just gonna try and see what i can do and maybe next year I'll enter don't know but at least i can say i tried. the only down side is i have doctors bugging me right now cus something strange is going on with my leg don't know what and nether do they. that kinda scares me. but they sent me home so it shouldn't be that bad just painful but its okay i will deal painkillers help lol. but yeah I'm stuck as to what i want to do my trail run with should i use my complex story that I've only just finished plotting the ideas or start this other story idea that i have that is well completely out of what i usually write tho i think that it would make a great interesting read that i could actually see made into a movie i know that i would watch it anyway..... :P lol but again I'm undecided......so many options......i have stories i could rewrite or maybe even the ones mentioned or start something new ahhh i don't know and the pain in my leg isn't helping well it's kept me in front of the computer can't really walk far good thing I'm staying on the couch i got t.v and computer all in arms reach just have to move for everything else...damn.....oh well....anyway that's all i got for now....hope to have my idea soon so yeah bye for now.

Dracula's Key Continued

I'm writing but for some reason i just don't like it to tell the truth i hate it i want to delete it and scrap the story all together truly i want to get rid of all my stories the only one i seem to be proud of is beginning of a new reign but anything after that i just want to ripe up and never look at them again...ugh so frustrated....i have ideas thousands of them but once i put the idea to the computer it just flops. even starting it out on good old fashion lined paper( I'll admit that it makes my story to me feel more personal) but i don't know the second i start putting it to the computer it dies! or maybe I'm just thinking too much i don't know.........

Dracula's Key

Okay new story for my favorite time of the year Halloween! I can't wait the best time of the year! anyway I'm trying another story one that i think will be good i hope. please review it's greatly appreciated! any way want to get back to writing hope it goes well thanks to all the people who have helped me threw this hard time thank you! any way the new story is called Dracula's key please read it and let me know what you think.

Downward spiral...maybe an ending....

okay so this isn't working i don't know if writing is my thing anymore although i have massive amounts of ideas that i would like to put to paper.....i just can't make it sound right i guess is the word....i don't know maybe i'll figure it out eventually but for now like i said before i'm out....if you need a beta reader i'm not doing anything really important right now and have a strange amount of free time on my hands comment on this post and i'll get back to you asap sorry this one is short and really not at all where i wanted to be in life at this time but bye for now or at least until a chapter pops into my mind.

Still looking to find that light

So things aren't going good. i just can't seem to find a light. it just too far outta my reach right now. my stories i guess just plain sux as people look at them but never review so i really don't feel like i should be writing anymore. i don't know i want to keep writing but it just doesn't come to me....i'm sorry that this is so depressing i might change my mind but until something changes i'm out. thanks for the short run.

Chapter 1

Yeah chapter one is up! i finally finished rewriting it. I'm hoping that everyone likes it. it's helping me get through this hard time....but i figure if i keep my mind on this and not on that then i can keep going. maybe one day it will be a thing of the past and something better will find its light on my door. lol i wish. but yeah i know this is a short post but i want to keep working on chapter two and then maybe on to chapter three . i dought that though maybe just half of chapter two...anyway hope yeah like Aquanox games! till next chapter.
okay just have to say this who ever made that little doughnut and salt shaker from the commercials you're a genius! i love them they are so cute! i want to take them home they're so cute and so sad!

Sad times

I'm going to apologize in advance. i don't think that I'll be writing for a little while. i will try to keep writing but if it takes a while for me to get anything new up it's because my life has just been turned upside down. My relationship with a man i love.....loved for the last 4 years has just ended...so my muses is now gone and truth be told i don't have the will to write anything at the moment. so what i think I'm going to do is go back to my old stories and try rewriting them...as sad as it is i just want to kinda disappear for a while I'm sorry if my stories become too dark and sad....but please bare with me light will come back soon.....i hope...

Continue or not to continue

I started a story that is a little close to my own life at the moment. i really like it but I've hit a point where i don't know if i want to keep writing it. the other problem is that i picked up a old old story from before that's a little out there and i've got a good flow going with so i don't know where to go keep writing this story or go back to the old one? i'm gonna finish the chapter then pop it up on fiction press with endless love and the rest. if anyones interested its called Aquanox games...its a little straight to the point....